Saturday, February 16, 2019

He walked away today....

Without even a blink of an eye 
after 27 years together...
(2 of those years we were engaged, 
25 of those years married!)  
What kind of person can do this.  
Walk away to a person who is 
married with children of her own.....
just because he knew her in high school!!!! 
  
We may not have any children together, 
but together he and I have raised and 
helped my three children from 
my first marriage. And we have celebrated the 
birthday of my deceased son by 
sending balloons to heaven every year.  
From my three children their 
are 10 grandchildren.  I get no explanation....
He says it is "Not my BUSINESS!!!!!"
But it IS my business, cause it 
IS MY LIFE TOO, 27 years of it!

You could have told me before you told
everyone else....(Karrie, Andrew the 
insurance guy, my sons, your friends,
your work place, ect.),  I should
have been the first to know what your
plans were and with whom.

I especially want you to be happy Mike,
why in Gods name wouldn't I,
just not at the expense of Ryan and I.
This all could have gone done
so differently, I even asked to meet
the person who turned your 
heart away from us.  You told me again,
"It isn't your business!!!!"  "I don't want you 
to harass her, you said to me!" 



And Mike I do know you were just
trying really hard to figure everything out.
To make it all work out for the best for
every one involved.  I know this
yet doesn't meant it doesn't hurt, cause
it does, a lot!


I would never harass anyone....
I am not that kind of person, 
never have been and never will be.  My tears
will come to an end and my heart will
heal.  I will continue on for my family,
as I always have. 

Having my grandson living under 
our roof for the past 10 years, 
due to the fact that I have custody 
of him since he was only 8 months old.  
This person is the only 
"Grandpa" he has ever known and loves.  
Not even a word, explanation, 
I am so sorry, Nothing.  Just Nothing!!!!!!  
WTF kind of person does THIS!!!!! 
Lord forgive me my thoughts....
Thank the Lord kids are resilient...
and Ryan is going to be
alright.  I believe that for our love for 
the Lord runs deep within both of us.
The Lord will not forsake us.



Heavenly Father,
I'm so grateful that You love me 
and are always with me.
Grant me wisdom in handling 
whatever comes my way today.
Help me know Your will and 
have the courage to follow it.
Let my words and actions reflect 
the light of Your Son, Jesus,
to a watching world.  You are my 
shelter and my strong tower. 
With You by my side, 
I will not be shaken.
Thank You for salvation 
in Christ, and for the
joy that fills my heart.  May You be 
glorified by my life today. 
Amen.

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